Thursday, December 23, 2010

Frustration

Just because that lazy bum decided to leave, I ended up being attacked for the wrong reasons coz it all happened in that single day my big boss knew about my request. If a person who isnt committed enough wants to leave, you should be happy abt it, and even happier that we haven't wasted much time on her. I dont wanna make someone stay just so that she can help to do some filing and leech upon the rest. Not capable, cannot commit. Tell me what I can do with her.

I wish he could just take it easy instead of ending up me bearing grudges against him and the entire organization. Arrgghhhhh these men are just so inapt at handling departures that they have to have their PMS and peeves huh??? 为什么不可以好聚好散,而要绑住我呢?

Never believed and will never believe people cannot do without another person. We won't die without each other, alright??!?!?!? Grrrr...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

One Fine Morn


-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Hohoho!

Besides Xmas and a holiday coming along the way, I realised there's something else worth "hohoho"-ing about. The head of the team I'm eyeing (to join) will be coming over to the office next week. Hopefully we can work out something really nice.

Hohoho!

Friday, December 17, 2010

Gun Fun

"There are enough guns in the US that if you gave one to every adult, you would run out of adults before you ran out of guns".

It's funny and not-so-funny all at the same time.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

7 days!

Wheeeeee!! Another 7 days+ and I'm on my way to enjoying Xmas alone in mid air with a bunch of strangers! =P

Past 3 days were kinda crazy. I finally realised how important and how much that other Geek has been doing for me. With him away for that period of time, I had to answer his calls in Japanese. The worst thing was, once those people start to realize a Japanese speaker is around (instead of someone telling them in English he's not around), they started calling my line directly. I don't really mind so much if it's someone I know (since they can make do with my less-than-good-enough language ability). But it got to a point when strangers started calling me. All of a sudden, I had to listen to technical issues in Japanese, get the answers, and reply to them in Japanese. -_-; very good training huh.... somehow the questions got harder and harder, cheemer and cheemer...

Met a disgusting uncle on the bus today. He was looking at me from head to feet all the while I was standing him on the bus. And when I turned to look at his eyes, he smiled at me, and continued throwing glances at me. Yicks!!! I took a seat later, and he was standing just beside me and kept pushing his body towards my seat! What more, he later 'pinched' my bag up using his fingers and pushed it inwards abit, saying to me "跑出来了". Arrggghhh!! The last straw was when he put one leg onto the raised platform of my seat. I gave him a hard long stare, and it didn't take long before he got off the bus.

Yuck.

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Hauntings

I'm so deeply traumatized, and I think I totally deserve it.

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Life

A friend passed away. It's someone whom I could connect to, back in JC... we've lost touch during Uni days... but he just wished me happy birthday few months back... and we promised that we'd marry each other if we're still single by 30, basically coz he's good at housework.

And I got to know how another got deceived of emotions and money from someone he trusted so much, to only realise that person has calculated her moves right from the start. I was pretty much angry with myself for not having taken care of him, and when he was going through all of it, I wasnt there for him.

And I was just feeling upset (all over again) about the same old matter... when I found out that my problems were non-existent compared to others. I'm so lucky that I dont even know how blessed I am. Should really pay more attention to what people are saying and feeling right?




On a much much much (though not so light) lighter note, I happened to watch the new show on Channel 8 last night. The first scenes were about how this cold blooded killer, knowing that his wife is with another man, kidnapped his family (who were running away from him). He pinned his wife onto the floor and while strangling her, telling her she was the person he loved most, and how he would never her to betray his love for her. Yes, he finally killed the wife and threw her into the sea, saying sorry but he'd make sure he pays back to that other man for causing her death.

It also left me tragically traumatized as I imagine it happening to me. It could have happened to me at some point in time, I thought.



What a start to a week.
If it helps, i wish i could leave everything here to be with the Geek right now. But then again, I won't wanna be separated from my family and friends for long.... :/ Life is a big irony itself.
What an awfully gloomy day...

Monday, December 06, 2010

ほっとした

Finally completed the paper!! Yay!! Was actually looking forward to finishing it so that the air around me would be back to normal (or not?) again... Been neglecting my social life which probably has gone into extinction awhile ago…

Paper itself. Grammar/Vocab portion was abit easier than expected… and Reading was a killer. Most of my friends didn’t have time to finish all of it. And even though I did (coz I was timing myself for each qn), I’m quite sure some answers were there only coz I needed to fill something up =P well well……

Listening was a lot easier than I thought. And it got me kinda worried if I fell for something. But according to the rest, it was really much easier, so…. It helped a lot too that we’re all in Biz Jap class coz the amount of keigo that came up was much much higher than previous years. Gotta thank the sensei for drilling us like a sadist hahaha…..



I’m still wary about listening to his news. To be frank, some memories, good and bad, raced through my mind several times throughout this period of time… I know I should have been studying and such things is not of my concern but………



Was talking to Clara yesterday, and telling her that I wanna move out and to Japan soon. The first thing she asked me was “How about Ah Ma? Is she going to live alone?”.

It seems like the only person in the house with a heart to care is just this 7 years old lass. Love her to bits!

Friday, December 03, 2010

The road we walked together

Not sure if I would wanna know about it if I had a choice. A colleague filled me up with news of K's wedding that took place last week. As she went on and on about it, I was trying to look nonchalant and cool about it =| At the back of my mind, everything's going haywire and I felt as if sparks were flying all over the place in my head.

I didnt feel happy nor unhappy about it.
It just left me confused.

One thing, by making me suffer through those bad times and guilt that lasted even today, he moved on first. I felt left behind. But all in all, I must say it's a good thing for sure that we're moving on. Maybe I will be able to release the 心结 that's been in me all along, and spare the Geek from the worrying.

The thought of leaving kinda saddens me abit. There's been so many people who have been too kind and shown me loads of guidance and patience all along. It's as though they treat you like their own kids, or maybe their niece. Very grateful to have these people shown me kindness from deep down the heart, in the workplace. What you taught, I will bring with me to wherever I may be.

Paris once upon a Xmas - 2006

I wish for the best for everyone, a new start!
Looking forward to 2011!

Oh I saw Matsuyama Kennichi again. Ended up we were in the same bus the whole journey but I didnt realise it.

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

In the mood


「僕は君に恋をする 」

He's got a really messy set of teeth (for an artiste). Nice MV but there's nothing else to focus on except those times he opened his mouth real wide o_O

「大きな古时计」

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Risk Managament

Know what you are most affected by and understand it. Manage it well so that you will not be controlled by it.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

In My Life

まだまだ。。。

No tumbler for me. This is fate.

Nonetheless, quite happy that I've managed a ok pass this time round.... it's not enough though, coz this means that you are in the danger zone whereby external factors can decide if it's a pass or fail for the real thing. My vocab sux real bad, I think. It's only the tikam skills that helped when I realised I wasnt confident of answering any question in the entire page.

Turned up for class even though I felt like skipping it. Was quite thankful to myself for pulling through the 2 classes, with a long break (and lonely lunch) in between. I felt quite touched seeing the teachers so committed to educating us straight from their hearts. I'm pretty sure it's not for money, being a language teacher doesnt pay well at all. When my teacher waved to me happily spotting me hanging around to study (while waiting for Biz Jap), a part of me felt very warm.




Exhausted after work ytd, but managed to drag myself to study and spent a night with the school kids. Then on the way back, I just felt super depressed about almost everything. It felt as though someone up there is playing this big prank on me, to trash and retrash my confidence again and again. And I thought I had someone to share my thoughts with, but I might be wrong afterall.

有些时候,心里所想的,纳闷的,也不一定要和别人分享。
有些时候,还是靠自己比较踏实,也比较安心。
没有期望,就没有失望。。。大概就是这样吧。。。
决定放弃其实比去挑战还需要更多勇气。

Freak Dreams

It was the physical letter that night.
And then it was about the sms yesterday.

What's with all my dreams??

小步舞曲



天空突然下起倾盆大雨
恋人在屋檐下相偎相依
移动我的脚步轻松躲雨
人潮拥挤握住湿热的手心
再也不愿想起不快乐的旋律
呼吸这一秒的空气
还有多少回忆藏著多少秘密
在我心里翻来覆去
什么叫做爱情
还有多少回忆藏著多少秘密
在你心里我也许只是你欣赏的风景

夜晚静静等著电话响起
时间躺在他去年寄来的信
空荡的风叫我播放著舞曲
旋转这一秒的孤寂
还有多少回忆藏著多少秘密
在你心里我也许是你轻快的游戏
还有多少回忆藏著多少秘密
在你心里我也许只是你缓慢的练习
音乐响起我一个人演出重覆的舞曲



On 2nd thoughts, i would rather not spend time talking about those people who work without principle, while acting like they are full of dignity.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Mugger

finally got down to some revision today after work :) efficiency here at starbucks is much better than home even though ive been surfing quite alot! *thumbs up*


Bestest friend with the almost-done Venti Peppermint mocha, number 100th for this year =p

work was pretty terrible today. blog later!

-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Dancing?

It's amazing that I come home almost everyday with renewed resolution on my decision. It's as though I'm confirming again and again, that it is right.

It's also quite amusing to watch people act like clowns around the bosses, when all their so-called principles and morals crumble and all they wanna do is to follow bosses' orders. The minute the bosses are out of sight, these wuss will start behaving as though they are so high up there.

And don't even me started about how they admire the angmohs......

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

...air

It's not that I dont like you. In fact, I think you look pretty cute.

But I just cant stand it when arrogance and stupidity pair up together to present you in front of me.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

勤労感謝の日

It's Labour Thanksgiving Day in Japan! Woohooo.... simply means there's minimal emails and phone calls today! =)

I have removed Cafe World from my fb account upon realising it was doing my life too much damage. Feels good!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Filial Piety

I always liked the reading section of JLPT practices... coz very often, there's passages that you find meaning to while reading (even though u were being timed, or in the middle of a paper!).. This takes abit of the toll away from digesting those long passages I guess...

There's this passage I came about during the last lesson, which left me thinking for quite some time... It talks about "親孝行" (filial piety). Some parents have hopes that their kids will be filial to them in the future when they will grow old... but according to the author, it's not needed. Instead, from the time before the child is born, to the minute he is born, this kid has given his parents much more joy than they would expect. Imagine parents who indulge in thinking up of names for their kids... this is one of the pleasure you get from the anticipation. Watching their children grow up, to call them "Papa" or "Mama", taking their first steps, entering primary school, etc... these also comprises of joy and pride to the parents right?

In summary, the point he was driving at was (which also happens to be the answer) 「子供は幼いころに親に対して生きる喜びをすでに与えており、それが何よりの親孝行であろう。」.


Paper today was alright. I guess it should be better than the last one, hopefully... i told myself (then) that if i passed the last mock, i would get myself the red tumbler as a reward. Not getting it is a punishment. I missed the passing grade by 2 1 marks #)&#'%#$+!

This time round, I raised the standard and would only get it if I get 75. Looks possible but let's just see. The listening part was abit tricky. One thing was that the speaker was very muffled and I couldnt make out what the voices were saying, not even the pronunciation. It didnt help that those voices didnt sound like native Japanese speaking.... and i trust my hearing coz listening has been my strongest area eversince the Geek appeared in my life...

Mental note to myself: Must work on the vocab.
This is the part I always disliked studying for. In the end, I turned to doing grammar, which I think I got pretty good at... could answer almost all of grammar with confidence, save for 1 qn while 90% of the vocab had their fate rested on tikam... tsktsk.

Still cant decide on a s95 or LX-5... it's just a cam, dunno why i have to torture myself over it.... but then again, my camera means alot to me, not just in terms of specs, size... but also design... i must say s95 looks pretty crappy despite the quality and size!

What color did yours turn out in?

31 days to the trip!! Yipee!!
I'm telling myself if the nagging headache doesnt stop nagging, i will go on medical leave.. bless me...

Friday, November 19, 2010

Flashbacks

It seems like yesterday, when Gong told me about her pregnancy and we were chatting excitedly over the entire thg...
It seems like yesterday, when the last Xmas party took place...
It seems like yesterday, when I first met the Geek and then slowly hang out more...
It seems like yesterday, when my first niece was born, when I was staying overnight at the Red Bench to finish projects...
It seems like yesterday, when we sat at the floor of Serene Mac, when we stood in the sun drilling for our marches, and when Mr Lee first inspired us...

Signs of getting on age.

Half of us are still hanging ard each other, while the other half might be hanging around their own circle. =)

Old women.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Restless night

I woke up today and felt like the 2 hours spent in the room yesterday was like a war... those obstinate uncles are such a pain in the ass, maybe that's why they are put into cold storage all the way up in a ulu ulu place....

I'm beginning to be super paranoid abt losing things from my hand... woke up in the middle of the night when i didnt feel the ring in my finger, and tried looking for it. Thank god it was just on the desk... not the first time already!!

2weeks+ to the exam... not that far away, so i told myself, it wont kill u to work hard for 2 weeks haha.... ive really lost it i think?!

there's many things im looking forward to.. but on the other hand, the situation may not be better even if they turn out how u have planned... well at least we've moving on without regretting not having tried right? =)

It's a holiday!

I wonder if things will actually turn out for the better, even slightly... In the last training I did, I'm very assured yours truly is a analytical, logical, systematical (or whatever ~cal you name, i have it) thinker. That said, I think and argue with logic, though i can get rather unsystematic at times, most of the time. During today's meeting, I really felt a sense of relief knowing that I have made up my mind on a date.

It's just not my day. But it's ok, since things will not turn out worse everyday right? It's gonna be better sometime, someday.... meanwhile, i should spend my efforts on happier things, talking to people i love...

ok. btw i didnt manage to look at see Matsuyama Kenichi's butt today.

明日ゴロゴロしたいなぁ。。。食べたり、ドラマを見たり。。。いやっ、そんなわけはないですよ!休みはあと1ヶ月後、その日まで我慢できるのか。。。

Monday, November 15, 2010

Before I forget...

I met Matsuyama Kenichi on the bus to work today, and he works at HP building. Saw his staff pass drop onto the floor as I walked behind him.

Woke up with a message to myself today. "Get the team new desktops!". Wonder what took me so long to realise the need...

Sunday, November 14, 2010

3 weeks

Finally got down to putting down onto paper things that have to be done. Reality check says I have to let go of some things, which I did pretty willingly haha... Just a few weeks left so no point going after too many things...

Hopefully this will discourage procrastination!

Another 39 days (says the counter, not me)... Somehow it doesnt feel like there's less than 1.5mths left to the much awaited end of year trip... but anyhows, YAY!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Goner

I realised, the mock papers actually affect how confident I feel about it, and that will in turn affect my efforts in preparing for the exams, and eventually affect my grades. The paper today was difficult, or I should say, many of the passages were so abstract, both of us just werent sure what we were reading. There was a passage from Haruki Murakami's novel even! At one time in time, i found myself drifting in between the real world and dream world just coz i was just too tired and going nowhere with those passages.

Changed my parting few days ago and everyone starting commenting how nice i looked. Ive seriously lost count. Thank you Every Body. Not trying to be funny here, but this made me wonder, if they had felt that i didnt look good before, nobody would bother telling u. they would only tell u if u look nice/better, coz that's their way of being kind. But not exactly true, right?

Im so gone today.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

42... and counting ↓

Another 42 days before I can leave... oh add another 10hours...
I'm so bored bored bored.... sometimes I don't know whether to laugh (being positive) or knit my eyebrows (being real) at those idiots...

Monday, November 08, 2010

X-rays


It's the 115th Anniversary of the discovery of X rays!
Haha always count on Google to learn about such things, or it may be just a reminder. Human technology? Alright, I'm thinking incoherently.

Suddenly thought of the time in Japan when I was very fresh and told my colleague"基板がヤバイ" and burst out laughing helplessly... im such a goner...

Work tmr, and gotta rush out that irritating essay for the training. Then it's another day of holiday! I love our founder's day coz that's the only time i can bum around without the usual crowd!!

Turned up for class on Sat morn, only to realise that it was the mock test. Cannot describe the shock i had when the teacher handed me the exam qns instead of the usual practice sheets... and since i was 20mins late and in a fluster, i decided i wont be able to do well enough and left... with more than 5h to spare before the next class.... got myself a book fr Prologue, shopped ard abit and settled down nicely at Starbucks! Saw this women who look like she just walked out of Orchard Tower.... so amusing... on 2nd tots, I think it's a He.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Phew!

Finally done with the training.
The training that made pretty unsure if being stuck in the classroom or to be back in the office is a worse scenario. Anyways, it's over and I know for sure I'll hafta be back tmr bleargh!

Was rushing through some materials yesterday for the group presentation, which turned out actually to be not graded, unlike what the trainer said... ermmm..... I stayed up for it and this is what I get.... Not to mention, there's another 1000 words essay which we have to hand up by the end of this week. The first training that I'm spending so much time (outside of training time) on... -.-

Some of the results of the assessments of myself turned out pleasantly surprising. I think the one most worth mentioning was that I was considered a "Person you would want to have fun with", the participant with 2nd highest no. of votes from the rest, just falling behind the first guy by 1 vote. Just in case you are wondering, no, I havent been vocal but really been trying to stay awake haha... maybe it helps that I'm one of the youngest participants around.....

Back to office... back to reality....

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Google

Google today, Scooby Doo Halloween style..

And for Google Japan...

夢

i realised, i do dream in Japanese afterall... was drifting in and out of dreamland today and when the alarm rang, I woke up into consciousness and remembered my dream forming in Japanese. Maybe this means I'm effectively trilingual hahahahaha....

Tried making a spongecake today... didnt do very well but not really a flop =) in fact quite happy with the taste and texture... only problem was that it didnt rise well and i ended up without the fluffy ふわふわ feeling... this would encourage me to work on it more =)

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Friday..

some ppl seen as less fussy, more flexi... but maybe they are continuosly trying to enjoy everythg they do, even if it might not be sth they wld want to spend time on. Finding joy in everythg?

My engineer broke down in front of me again today. Makes me wonder if im really harsh enough to make a mother of 2 cry... i know im straight, and can get quite harsh at times... but ive harboured any thoughts of crushing her confidence, only do myself bad right? wonder what i can do to help both of us, especially when im not someone to be shower TLC... not willing to motherhen a mother too!

was at coro trying to force myself to do some revision, since staying at hm wld mean a futile day... quite happy it turned out pretty fruitful, but im dead tired after the rushing ard and battles...

Friday, October 29, 2010

鼻酸

刚刚有种鼻酸的感觉。
想哭也哭不出来。。。就卡在那里。。。

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Discipline

When can I ever learn to be disciplined enough to not go near the office mail whenever I'm at home? I sometimes think I play a big part in letting my work life ruin my personal life.

It's Wed tmr, and the first day back into office after the *ahem boring* training. Am determined to knock off on time!!

The only good thing abt reading those mail was realizing that no matter how boring the training is, it can never beat the frustrations you get from dealing with those people from the company.

Mom is finally back, and man I'm really glad!! =)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

ハート

Grateful for the Geek who took the effort to remember to bring the charger over and left it here for me. Being the guy who forgets things before you could say "eh", it's really quite admirable hahaha... ok im making a mountain out of a molehill.

To think I was half cursing under my breath while trying to figure out where it was, suspecting he brought it back without realizing... It's actually placed neatly in a small compartment... ♥

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Done

I'm snapping, I think. Or rather, I might have already snapped unknowingly (with a wimpy "taaaat")...

Wondering if I should sharpen my blade today for a good killing, or sit back and relax... probably the millionth work related entry to date!

?!

It suddenly occur to me (again?! first time?) that I might be sliding into a depression.

SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE, before I ever get found out!!!!!!

3rd post for the past 24h.

Hanging on

Couldnt get to sleep and was reading the company mail (darn me! stupid!)!!! Got so frustrated (as usual) and wondered if I can even hang on for 2 more months, plus. It helps that I'll be spending 2 days end Oct and early Nov each week on a training course, and the fact that Nov is filled with holidays. Then it's gonna be Dec where JLPT would be over and we'll aaa be in Year's end celebratory mood, it's just holiday to look forward to.

The big question is, who can guarantee that nothing major will happen to push me off balance?

Something happier.
Got this from my mailbox, among all the mails chasing after me... at least it puts me in a good mood (for like 3mins before it gets screwed up again) and I think mine was one of the better one among my team. Dont know how they got hold of this 'look' though coz my latest HR pic is that with long straight hair... Imagination from the guys in Japan?

等

Feeling so tired from all the waiting.
Who can I blame for all these...? There not even 1 person...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

忍

Wish people could stop pissing me non-stop, at least for today.
Even the AXS machine is giving me trouble!!

A good dinner at The Line (again) to look forward to... and then it's 2 days to the weekend.... followed by off site training! Wheee!

Friday, October 15, 2010

Compliments X

I'm bad at accepting compliments. And this is all I will write about this title haha...

Was roped into the Asian GMCs strategy meeting in the last min today. Told by the boss when I stepped into office that I'll be attending it, in 10mins time. Wonder what would have happened if I had stepped into office 15mins later, since it's still a full 30mins before work starts.

Meeting was fine, just a few minor surprises here and there. Was quite interesting seeing that Aussie guy act crybaby. The CEO suddenly asked me to make some speech/comments towards the end of the meeting, and i just blabbered some nonsensical stuffs. Think its a very Japanese thing to ask people to say something for the sake of it? My crazy boss did it all the time.

Sat with Ah Beng most of the time and there were lotsa interaction. Only then I'm convinced I'm right. The 4 eyes too. He's pretty straight, simple minded in a very strange way. Maybe it's just "boring" to me. When I was back to my workdesk, he came over and tried to make some small talks and he asked if I ever punched 4 eyes (being my subordinate). I answered "nope, 汚いから". The next min i knew it, he went on at 4 eyes "汚い、臭いって" a few times... i nearly fell off my seat in the immensely cold joke that he tried very hard to make. He then went on to say that he saw many Singaporean men who dont wash their hands after visiting the toilet and hold their gfs' hands straight after that (Singaporean men, issit true???). I simply told him "actually a local male staff has told me b4 he's seen many Japanese men in our office not washing their hands in the toilet too. be careful coz someone's watching u in the toilet!". He just stopped talking for awhile hahahaha.............. Saw a very interesting character in the meeting too =)

Remb the invitation from my boss in Japan, for me to work in the HQ if i wanted to? I'm kinda tempted to take up the offer, not under R&D but pdt mgmt. It might be something that I want to and can do well. I'm just wondering if I should stay on here....

And all those figures and terms today got me thinking about going for MBA again, i dont feel i need to do MOT.... cant seem to make up my mind huh?!

Since the geek was here, I have pix to show! =)

Lunch at The Line

Cousin's wedding cake

Caught in the act!

Beautiful chandelier

Wedding favours

This boy was so cute! He was smiling at everyone with a big wide grin! =))

The GF1 will be here with me till Dec since he wont have to take any pix (how to when you are slogging away in office everyday?)... and I'm gonna get the LX-5 so he can use it for the time being hee...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Good miss

Is getting good with Japlish.

And I thought I was going to fail my mock test by 1 point.
The fact is that, with the new exam format, the passing criteria has been brought down to 100 points, which I thought is very low!

But it doesn't mean it's gonna be easy haha... with less points to play around, you have a higher risk with every mistake. And the questions are gonna be harder to score too... tough luck! -_-

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Yawnz

Zzz.....

Gong's tummy getting bigger!!

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Concerns

Think got mom very worried ytd when I got home and sat down in front of the PC and started staring (at recipes).
She came into my room and asked “什么事情?有人欺负你啊?”

She can be so cute at times.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

旅行的意義



This, of course, has no related to this post. Just that I only realised now we have not finished watching this MTV till the end at the KTV yet.

Part of the joy in taking a trip, is the excitement of looking forward to the trip itself isnt it? When it comes to a time where you don't have the time to plan/think about it, you lost a big part of the enjoyment.




Look how well the anime is made... so amazing!
Officially obsessed with this anime and shall find a day to finish watching it =P

Sunday, October 03, 2010

心冷

我的心好冷啊!

Saturday, October 02, 2010

Bizarre

Had an odd dream ytd. And I'm not sure if I even want it to happen in real life.

Update: Now I recall it, as the feeling from few years back! No dont let it happen please!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Skip to the loo?

Blogging during lunchtime, usually means ive been too occupied lately.

Super busy at work, which is good in a way coz time passes by really fast. But I ended up doing more OT than intended to and by the time I knock off, there's no mood/motivation to study anymore.

I'm beginning to feel more hopeful about passing. But it's not going to come easy so better put in some efforts.



About work. I found out a big screw up by my big boss in Japan, and got the whole world alarmed. Knew that the eventual consequences would fall on my team (since the big boss isn't the do-er), but rather face it now than later when everything spirals out of hand right?

Got alot of comments from colleagues in Japan that the big boss went back and told them my Japanese is very good. Eh, I (am and) should be happy. But no expectation means no disappointment. Now got expectation liaoz...

The Geek will be here in about a week's time! =) Happiness.......

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Work sux

Heck everything including the test tmr.
Off to bed and may tomorrow be a better day. Promise myself not to check anymore work mail at home, at least for this weekend!

Friday, September 24, 2010

Champions

Took part in the company's RC game (Amazing Race) today and won! It's alot of good luck plus very capable team members, and of cos good team work! The $500 hard cash to be shared among 8 of us, probably for dinner or sth, is not alot. But the game was made so much more enjoyable when you are in a team of colleagues whom you (mostly) like. Well done all of us!!

Maybe it's abit bhb but the people in office expected us to win, and we did too, or at least the top 3. Coz somehow or another, we're made up of siao onz staff who always take part in company events and end up winning something somehow or another. =P This has gotta be one of the most memorable days of my last few months here.....

Had abit much of the wine at the bbq that followed. Feeling abit sleepy, but there's still the test tmr.... I see the same patterns for the last, this and the next weeks....

Wakey!! 頑張ろう!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Moods

i dont know why..


-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Monday, September 20, 2010

Bleargh

I know now, I wanna pass it so badly, without even realising it. My subconscious probably realised that if i dont pass it this time round, i wont be bothered to take/pass it a 2nd time.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Weekend Blues

Dinner/drinking session with the *ahem other* geek and the oldie... wasnt that fantastic and burnt a big hole in my pocket. But at the very least, I can say I've done my part and that I dont have to do it again. Was good that the boy was ard to accompany me else I would have to do cheers with the oldie, over a 4litre beer tower... madness! And at least I think I've got my ideas clear now.

Woke up the next day and ended up being 45mins late for prep class, though I guess I havent missed much since they were doing some test which I didnt study for, as usual. Skipped biz jap though, coz i was dozing off during the prep class. The nagging headache didnt help too.

At times, I still think it's actually not so much a far fetched thing for me to pass the exam. Anyway, just try my best yeah? よし、勉強しよう!

It suddenly occurred to me that i havent been furnishing this blog with pix, not even boring ones.
Pretty Petite Gaufres from the Geek

Oh and prep for (yet another) 朝礼当番 next week... arrggghhh!!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Geekiness

Ohhh so much of it I can't stand it!!!
Stay away from me!!!!!

Miscellaneously Random

Passing time
It's easier to get by when there's a goal to look forward to. The date, that is. Nothing has been done yet when it comes to the preparation that I should be working for before that day arrives. Hahaha.... will someone please give me a hard nudge?

As high as possible
You should be striving to get as high as possible above the line. On the other hand, I'm working hard to get as high as possible, and cross that (my) by means of some miracle(s).

爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走 - 心跳
This is how I had felt for the past r/s. Stuck, or even constipated. Let us always bear this in mind, to think twice (or thrice) before doing something silly to take away everything we are fortunate enough to have.

even the labels are misc.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

DayDreaming

Indulging in my own world of someone’s handwriting, again.
*ahem*

Sunday, September 12, 2010

受委屈

"If I want to be calculative with you, your life here will not be so easy."

These words came up during an unpleasant talk with the Mother just now, when she asked about my dinner and I said I've taken it, feeling hungry and cant be bothered much about pride. She then went on about why I wanna make his life difficult. I'm not. If I'm hungry, I'll go to the dinner table no matter who's there. So if she (the wife) doesnt wanna come to the dinner table just because I'm seated there, it's my fault. Huh?

Anyways, the discussion led to no ends.
I ended it by promising I'll end all the sandwiching misery for her in 6 months. That means, by hook or by crook, I'll have to be outta this place, be it in another place in SG or another country. If that's what you want, anyway, I'm not keen to witness people talking to each other at the top of their voices.

■ □ ■ □ ■

On to less unpleasant stuffs. The Biz Jap class had 2 new guys, who just came back from Japan after over 1 year stay. One of them seem pretty stuck up, as if he totally hated it when sensei corrects him (thats what we all came to class for, i thought?). The other one is much friendlier, and we chatted abit, and I got to know that he chanced upon a technical job in Tokyo, without even wanting to initially, but ended up staying there for over 2 years. According to him, the chances of progression for foreigners is really low. He blamed it on the economy, and that they are still not open to foreigners, yet. I hope it's not all true, coz it'll mean me dumping my lollipop for H2O in the very near future.

He said that in Japan, people could understand what he said and he got along with life fine. Sensei is abit too 厳しい, he commented, nobody cares about your language accuracy, at least not that much. I told him, he should feel lucky to find a sensei who's not hesitant in correcting everything so that you can present yourself better in the business environment. I didnt tell him the part that his colleagues were probably sniggering at his Japanese behind his back. And maybe, that says why he didnt get the progression he (thought he) deserved.

These people can be super nice and praise you to no end in front of you, but at the back of their mind, you're probably nowhere near acceptable.

Friday, September 10, 2010

♥

Has fallen in love, with someone's handwriting.
Found myself staring at those words on the paper whenever they appear.
Tsktsk

And I was at my workdesk all along.

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Sightings

Think I spotted Ah Beng & Wife at Vivo today.
Before you ask, no, I wasnt stalking him/them hoho.

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Lost (again)

A scratch painting I did while waiting to board the flight


Im not sure at times, if I should call it a day.
Somehow, somedays, I just feel like it's not working.
And I'm the problem.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Back!

Yes, I'm back! To Sunny Island, from Sunnier Island!
For the first time in my life, I did a speech in Bahasa Malaysia. Didn't understand much of what I said, coz everything was translated based on my English script. I just tried to make the pronunciation as accurate as possible.

Was quite impressed with the malaysia factory (yes, that's where I went). They really looked professional and everything was in order (at least that's what I saw). The equipments were good ones, and well maintained too.

The office was very different from what we have here. Over in SG, the Japanese adapted to the local style of working whereas in Malaysia, the locals adapted to the Japanese style. So in a way, I felt like I was back in the Japan office... And it also seemed like if you know Japanese, you would be more prized and appreciated. But no such things here. I think it says alot about how locals (we Singaporeans vs Malaysians) think, and the Japanese people too.

One thing that got me all flattered and big headed was when I had dinner with the big boss and the R&D manager. I could join in most of their conversation and apparently they were quite impressed. In the meeting room the next day, there was actually this lady (with JLPT1 cert) with us who was supposed to translate. But halfway through the meeting, she either got lost, or the conversation went too technical for her, and I ended being the one translating to and fro J-E. Happy with myself too. I should, though, really brush up on Business Japanese though.

Another news. The big boss seems to know something already. During the dinner, the manager asked if Singaporean ladies work after getting married, and I said yeap, coz it's better with 2 income. The boss then started saying "You know, if you get married, you should come to Japan and work in the Japan HQ.". I went.... "huh... why Japan?". And he just looked into my eyes (not kidding!) and said "Because (he is) Japanese". I was dumbfounded covered up my mouth very childishly. I just stayed quiet for the next 1 minute.....

Sunday, September 05, 2010

Dec!

Booked my tic! Hee got ANA despite the steeper price... Think it's worth it, for the better service u get... But I should really be saving up, like what i told ZP, save up for the &temporary retirement' haha... ok and i did try, didnt give in to temptations and gave up looking at some dresses earlier today..

At least there's sth to look forward to now, even though its like sooooooooooooo faaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrr away.... And oh, the Oct meeting!

Friday, September 03, 2010

This day...

... I hate it when I get frustrated with people easily and start behaving harshly.
... I hate it when I have to entertain all my crazy thoughts.
... I hate it when I'm unsure of my own feelings.
... I hate the feeling when I feel like I'm about to stray, but people just trust you like they usually do.
... I just want to slow down and think about my life. But it sucks when I'm actually the one who's stopping myself from doing so.

I think I'm just feeling extremely weak today. It's good that I'm home now, instead of wandering outside. Yet another week has passed by just like this, I'm not sure to be glad it means 1 week off the long wait, or feel bad that I've wasted another week not achieving anything.

To KL this Sun, and back on Mon evening. I dont even comprehend/agree with the reason I have to be there.

Happy Bdae

Yet another day, yet another year! Happy Birthday to myself!!
Everyone's asking why I haven't taken leave on this day... but I can't see the reason to, so I can't explain why not...

I coined a new tagline while arguing discussing with the GM (this Japanese guy) yesterday. It goes...
"The smartest men I've seen don't argue with me (so stop embarrassing yourself...)"

I told the Geek and now he's willing to pay me royalty each time he says it to his bosses.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Boooo!

仕事のやり甲斐がない。。。

Daydreams

I'm already day dreaming of strolling down to the Mister Donut store near his place after the visit to the shrine on New Year Eve, to get the fukubukuro. Somebody save me!!!

Starbucks Sakura

It suddenly occurred to me. I wanna get a new sakura tumbler from Starbucks next Spring… and this will indicate my new start! =) 6 months to counting down, it seems so far away….

Sunday, August 29, 2010

さくら - いきものがかり

this song was all over the place while I was in Japan few years ago. And it has been in my iPod(s) eversince.



On a side note, I seriously doubt I can pass JLPT1 this year... definitely not that this rate I'm going... =|

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Updates

I'm just lazy, so let me be short and sweet.

had an interesting encounter w ah beng today, which i think will make office life for the next few wks abit more fun. saw the ex via tv conf today too :s

been wanting to bake and this would be a good time coz there no jap claases for the whole day... thinking of using this recipe... or the one online...


storms nowadays seem stronger... its either that or i used to sleep so well that i dont remb any strong storms over here, esp at night.

-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Family Love

He threatened me, so being me, I dared him.
How stupid.

Oh can I say, it's the 2nd time he's telling me he can do things to me if he wants to? But the last time I dared him, I didnt feel anything coming. Cracking my head now as to what he can really do to me.

Letting his insane partner loose and go around biting/hallucinating?

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

想不开

。。。放不下。

The Brother (finally) talked to me, when he asked if I asked Nemo that the sweets I got for her are not meant for her sis. As an aunt, I agree thats not the perfect thing to do. I said yeap, I said so. And why do you want to always buy things only for Nemo, thus creating such negative feelings between the girls, he asked. That was never my intentions, and what he said wasnt true. I had always made sure I got 2 sets of stuffs for the girls whenever I go overseas, even at times, their cousins (my sisters' kids) may not even get anything. He only saw the part when I had chose not to give the spoilt brat, coz it was when I had just handed over the present from Italy and the next moment, she turned her head without saying thanks and ignored me from then on. Nemo has always respected me more as an aunt, and that's what she deserves for behaving.

I won't reward a kid for bad behavior. That would be the perfect way to spoil her further. Looking at the way she's turning out coz of you people not being bothered to discipline her, I guess I dont have to contribute further.

Dont even get me started about the prata guy, who flipped facts and chewed words countless times today. And about the Geek!!

Today shall be "Me Against the Rest of The World Day"!
*RAWWWRRRRR*

Rose Gold

Was told rose gold is not plated. So the color will not wear off. =) Very glad.

Affected

This heightened frustration and continuous nonsense isn’t helping me to hold out till Jan the 7th. It’s worse that I had to pick up a fight with him (yes, I’m always the one initiating a fight!!) at this time.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Italy Trip

Pix are already finally up!!!
Link to it here.

Couldn't drag it further since the Geek's mom asked for it.....
Took me nights to filter through and upload haha... Enjoy!

Meeting!

Wheeee! He's coming over in Oct, and just got the tic! Supposed to be a birthday celebration so he wanted to be here mid Sept... but these airline cos are just out to earn money, a tic in Sept costs 3万more than that in Oct!! WTH? Anyway, meeting in Aug then in Oct followed by Dec seems better 'paced'.....

So happy!!
And that reminds me of my Dec tic... what's stopping me is not knowing about my next move... Tix in Dec cost quite a bomb too, and I wont be able to redeem my UOB points since those in that category are all sold out =(

Sunday, August 22, 2010

JLPT

Signed up for the exam today. Hope everything goes well. By that, i mean, i hope i would actually put in the effort to really study and improve myself (not just to score).

Got back results of the mock test today, and it was rather surprising that I passed. Maybe this will keep motivation up for awhile... =)

The Geek behaved kinda weirdly today... Hmm will ask him abt it tmr...

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

ST Goals

Ok. I read your post about what you have done, and what you will do, for this year.
Here's mine.

Done:
1. Attempted the scholarship again and found out the reason so I know I can give up.
That's all.

To Do (by end of year)
1. Find out what I wanna do really
2. Read Job Classified every Sats
3. Make an effort to find something in Tokyo
4. Make an effort to finish HW and study for prep class every week
5. Be a nicer gf to the Geek, for deserves more than a selfish and ugly brat
Ok, that should not be just a short term goal, i hope.. haha

Something to read.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

:(

Heard 2 stories of people breaking up just within 1 day of return, both of which involve parties who are close to me. Hmmm.... in both cases, it seems like the ladies weren't exactly happy with their guys' careers, how much they are earning, and their 'pride', as the ladies see it.

Which brings me to appreciate the fact that I'm surrounded by females who work hard themselves, not depending on their guys, and not needing them to have to (worry about) providing for them. =)

Glad to be back from the trip. Not that I didnt enjoy it or what, in fact, it was fantastic. The places were beautiful and amazing. But the stress of having to rush for trains/flights/ships really freak me out alot, and isnt something I wanna live with constantly. And it was so hot & humid that I got frustrated easily though we wanted to see alot more stuffs. I wished I could spare more days to slow down abit, I might enjoy it much much more. And to answer to Lin (coz you dont have a comment box!! =P), there were some purchases, but apparently shopping isnt a guy's fave pasttime, so there were limited time for me to walk ard the air of luxury brands haha.

Back to work today. Bleargh.

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

You were saying?

げっすいっきん
げっかっすいもく

really got me ROFL with a nasty uncontrollable
snort.

-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Monday, August 02, 2010

Personal High

Think this is the highest I should can go
Very pleased, but still not sure how I did it...... -.-

And my obsession with Bejeweled marks a new point, where it has its own label in my blog. =)

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Getting ready

Pillbox says hi.

Essentials for the trip.
Never forget your collagen & vitamins.

failed

he thinks the reason im working so hard to find my way to japan is coz "i love japan". i didnt know there (seem to be) no any other reasons more obvious than this. i thought ive said it plainly before? maybe i didnt, but do i have to?

i really think im a failure.

Misc

View from the school (2nd best)

Got this from the boss when she heard I'll be fighting heatwaves in Italy
(this works!)

Few more days to the trip!! Yipee!!!!

Friday, July 30, 2010

KS

Think i have a really ks classmate haha.... she's the kind who will ask you what kinds of qns came out during tests (coz i took them earlier), asked if u prepared for exam, and uses her arms to block anyone from looking at her paper (not like i was trying to, but her actions were too distracting)....

I just wanna go and sleep haha... apparently look myself very up eh.....

Got kinda fed up today when I heard the MD talk abt Japan side (R&D) promising to release sth by midnight today. This something is the product that the Geek had to take over all of a sudden. It's when I heard that, then I felt so frustrated. My guy has been staying over in office these few weeks coz those people agreed to something, without even consulting the doers. Now that's not new to me.... but I can't believe they actually think they can slave drive people like this, and expect those doers to sustain their motivation/strength/whatever. What's there to look forward to for these guys (save for the Geek, coz he's been brainwashed by me that everyone needs a holiday every few mths)?!

Then on the other hand, I realized what kept the Geek going. He has his goals of gaining as much technical experience as he can, in his 20s, while he can still afford to burn himself out. After which, of coz it's moving on to higher level.... I looked at how I'm complaining all day and felt kinda ashamed of myself....

I hope I'm not going mad, yet........
Oh and, everyone had a good laugh at the Chorei session today! 成功!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Curls!

If you think I looked Korean previously, here's something for you....

Anafooxidized Korean...

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Concentration

I can do my job very well if you could just leave me alone.
It has been tested and verified that this will make everyone happy.
Thank you very much.

Moving on

Feels much better knowing the result. Even though I still feel abit of injustice that I had been judged based on my uni grades, which took place so long ago. Even if I had a better proposal, performed better at the interview or could bring better benefits back to SG, it didn't matter.

On the other hand, I can only have myself to blame, for neglecting my studies during those days. Don't ask me why I did so though haha... and we're talking about a scholarship here, it's only right that they refer to past grades.

But at least, as I've said, I have not let myself down. One good thing is that I can finally move on to other things, those short term goals that I should have placed my attention on, and decisions on long term plans.

Let's move forward!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Dried up

No mail. No news.

Was busy running all over the place this morning, until I finally got back to my desk. Once again I started checking mails and thinking about it... It's draining me out mentally.

Got my hair brush yesterday, so my hair looks fine hahaha....
Ok kill me please.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Grr!

f*ck you! i just wanna go home!

Meow

Can’t help wondering when I see people doing redundant job. Can’t stand it when I’m made to do that redundant job, and when I try to reason it out, I get the response “anyway… just do it.”. Are these people brain dead or what?

Hey I’m not about to give up my bright (but rainy) day for such petty things. I have more things to look forward to!! =)

New Hairstyle

My new hairstyle got more attention then ever. Luckily all very positive ones. All the ladies started asking where I did it, for how much. Even Ah Beng was saying that it looks very nice and thinks that I spent alot of money on it, when in fact it's really very reasonable. Woooohoooooo......... This is the highlight of this week man! And of cos, the meeting this evening has been cancelled!

Very happy with this hairstyle, coz my head is super light now (but still got brains inside)! I like this feeling when my hair is originally very long, then by chopping off those tresses, my head, body and mind all seem lighter! Now the problem is how I maintain it, coz the styling today was done by the hairstylist. I'll be on my own tonight onwards, and she warned that the curls will seem pretty springy coz it's still v fresh. *cross fingers cross toes*

Starting from today, I'm going to be a mail checking engine once again.
Had a bad dream yesterday... don't wanna think about it =(

Net Addiction

Did a presentation slides on Net Addiction, for leading the chorei for this week. If you are still not aware, I have been unfortunate enough to be one of the privileged people to have to go through a whole week of presentation, after the promotion (that didnt feel much like one).

Anyways, I didnt want to end up doing something so boring, since I know the pain of standing through a whole presentation by some stupid accountant who thinks that we want to learn how to calculate the company accounts, or (super technical details on) the new GST implementation in Msia. That's your job, not ours. So I was racking my brains and finally decided on this theme.

It was quite funny coz I got some really ridiculous pix to go along with, so it didnt really feel like a formal thgy... I had wanted to put it more "impressive" images, but decided not to bog everyone down on a Monday (i smell bluesss).... Sent the draft one to the Geek, and he asked if it's for some marketing gimmicks haha...


While I was going through these articles, I realised it is actually myself (and many of you guys out there) I'm reading about. It's interesting to get to know about your addiction from this perspective. Or maybe not.

Finally, a post about work on a happier note, everysince the longest time!!
I'm only done with the Monday portion... Dont wanna burn my weekend on it!



And while I'm at it
Step 1: Submission
Step 2: Documents screening
Step 3: Exams
Step 4: Interview
Step 5: Embassy nomination
Step 6: Confirmation

Oh, and I cut (and permed) my hair really short today. Will have to learn how to style this new length so as not to look like AnafoooOxide =P Mock test this coming sat!! And we havent done any planning for Italy trip yet!! Ahhh.....

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Death March

Is this where we are heading?
Was telling the Geek (yes, he's finally back on earth for a few hrs) that if ever he falls into underland, i ll be the only person to realize it. and since i dont contact his friends/family, nobody will realise his absence and he ll just be forgotten after awhile.

We then exchanged some no... fr me, my Sis' and fr him, the family house no... i just hope the dog doesnt pick up the phone and recognize me -.-

Spent my whole day in town today... tired! I finally managed to reach morn class only 5 mins late, and dats only coz i dropped by isetan to get coffee...

class was followed by lunch w C chan, and then involved me dragging her down to taka despite her cough... H chan was waiting for us there... and im really glad we got her v nice stuffs fr folli follie :)) had some tea ar marmalade toast, then off to Biz Jap again...

Geek will be at work tmr, and i seriously think the boss doesnt have a calendar to tell him its Sun tmr....

Also let the result be released soon, no matter what it holds for me... im sick of waiting!


-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Friday, July 23, 2010

The BF & Company

Is angry with the company for keeping the bf in office, day after day.
Dont they even realise constant firefighting this way will only burn people out, and even bring down your entire team/company? There's just something soooooooo wrong here!

I wonder what's with their mind. Those ang mohs demanding things, and the Japanese, in order to be seen as giving and to keep their 'face', pushing everyone off their limit.

We should do something about our lives. I think with our capabilities, both of us can lead better lives away from here.
*RRRAAAAWWWWRRRR*

計画

We were discussing alternatives, just in case I dont get the scholarship. Dont get me wrong, I'm still hopeful, and I feel that I do stand a good chance. But it's always good to make plans if all else fails.

I asked for his opinions for the options I'm considering
1. Study full time and work part time
2. Study part time and work full time
3. Simply work full time
4. Study Japanese for some time, then get a good full time job

He chose 1, simply coz he feels it's good to further my studies, and having done part time Masters, he knows how hard it can be. There was even an attractive offer thrown in, that if I chose to do my Masters at Uni H, he'll pay for my living expense! Very attractive indeed. The other Uni W, which was my first choice due to the specialization, is basically a private U which charges exorbitant fees and spends a bomb on publicity. Uni H, on the other hand, is a public Uni which has a very good reputation in this field. But obviously, more people would wanna try to get into Uni H.

So the point is, how to make sure that I do get into Uni H?
Thinking of leaving this position latest by Nov, so that I can work on my JLPT, pass it, then move on to concentrate on the University application, entrance exam, essays, GMAT, etc......

Finally something positive and concrete to work for and look forward to!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

The Interview

I still think I stand a good chance. Not say I'm confident of getting it, but after reviewing my performance, I think I did pretty well. And I could see that I got them engaged into the conversation, really agreeing to what I've said and contributing their views.

Oh ya, the interviewer was saying that my score for the Japanese paper was extremely good. This left me feeling very good even if this might not be considered.

Anyway, results will be out next week, whether I get it or not.
So at least I wont be a mail checking engine this week.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

No regrets

Did my best.
Didnt say anything that would let myself down.
What I can only imagine stopping me would be the fact that they dont really have a thing for approving applications for MBA... and prob my uni grades (though I think I did a good job of defensing it).

So it's all in their hands. And I have nothing to regret. =)
Get it or not, I'll move on from here! Yay!

Of course, it doesnt hurt if they give me some good news haha....

=)

Woke up to a beautiful sky today.
I believe it'll be a good day.
Wish me luck =)

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Skiving

I realised that I turn into a super machine whenever it comes to skiving off work that I cant concentrate on. For example, raking in a grand total of 4 posts today (as of now i mean), and scoring a personal high in Bejeweled.


The first one was, already a personal high, though I havent beat the no. 1 guy in my list... 2 minutes later, before i know it, i've usurped him as the bejeweled geek.

Alrite, I should go back to serious work, now that I've made history.

iPad

Geek showed his family the pix from the wedding, in full glory, using the super clear iPad. They were quite into the album, commenting as they went, until they got to a point where everyone went quiet. The picture of Mr Bartender hugging the bride and myself.

It's not even funny.
Now I so dont wanna meet them for another 1 year!!!

I.Likes.You

Is beginning to like the latest new Japanese Prime Minister.
New Growth Strategy Blueprint for Revitalizing Japan

Opportunity = Using the right things, at the right time, right place.

Thank Bro

i wanna thank my brother, for bringing his (noisy) family to my house today.
because with them around, i can finally enjoy a full meal with decent food.
amen.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Desperado

I want it so badly!
And I was just thinking, if I should stop myself from (looking like im) trying too hard... or just go all out even if i seem desperate.
Hmmm... last year was the first one, but im not very convinced to try the 2nd style this time round... arrggghhhh.....

Step by step: 3

Step 1: Submission
Step 2: Documents screening
Step 3: Exams
Step 4: Interview
Step 5: Embassy nomination
Step 6: Confirmation

Had the papers today. English was pretty straight forward and easy, and I doubt there's much mistakes, if any. Japanese one was abit challenging, especially the 2 long passages, since i suck big time at reading long cheem passages and tend to drift off haha.... It didnt help when I thought the paper was going to end at 12noon, instead of 12.10pm... so i kinda rushed through the last part. Dont think i did too badly for that though... nothing could be worse than the paper last year haha... 20 killer passages! A few of the candidates walked out of the exam room after they were told that the results of Japanese paper would be taken into account. Some others were obviously tikam-ing. I was just very glad that my Biz Jap and prep classes really help to boost my confidence.

Now on to the interview. I must ace it. I will (psycho myself to) succeed.



Note to myself: must buy moisturizer and pay for rest of cc bill!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Step by step: 2

Step 1: Submission
Step 2: Documents screening
Step 3: Exams
Step 4: Interview
Step 5: Embassy nomination
Step 6: Confirmation

Must ace the exams!

Joke?

I think that it would be a nasty prank played on me if I dont even get past the document screening.
Send me the mail please!!!!
Exams supposedly on the 16th (this Fri!) and interviews on the 21st.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Rule No. 2

2. Watch what you say.

If possible, rethink, rethink, and rethink.
Coz you never know when these same words would come back and bite you.

Rule No. 1

The Golden Rules
1. Take and Take

Some things they want, today means today, no 2nd word about it. I've never seen a more obliging me.

Some things, i realised, ive been asking for since forever, but never got.
I only realised today that they still owe me simple things like a few pieces of cables... maybe they need to ask the CEO's approval for that but since it's only cables, the request is put on the lowest priority?

Email..

The waiting game begins!
And the email checking engine gets started again!!!

Huh?

忘れないように、思い出すことを書きましょう!

もし日本に引っ越したい理由が彼だったら、他の人なら絶対に行けないでしょう。。。?


-- 自分のiPhoneから発送する

Sunday, July 11, 2010

花嫁

The amazing bridal party I went for. Really glad to be part of this happy occasion.

Beautiful setup

The actual couple, as the bride looked on....

Cake the female guests decorated... nothing but ultimate cuteness!

Us with the bride

The quirky couple, something no doubt they do at home usually

Well wishes from the guests

Emcees for the day

One last hug (well, not really the last)

After the event, I had that kind of feeling that says "Well, I've finally married another good pal off to a man I could trust!". She was the girl I stuck on to, who brought me into the group of great people at Techno Centre. She showed me that you dont have to be Japanese in Japan, and heck those people who try so hard to behave but are actually 変. And he, the amazing Canadian who speaks Japanese, Chinese and English, is strong, smart (like, how many people hold a PhD in Philosophy?!) and kind, all rolled into one. One more thing, he's one of the few ang mohs I like. =)

Congratulations, my dearest girl!!



*Decided I wont bother posting up pix of the last Japan trip (before this) since it's so long ago and there's so many photos hahaha.... どうしょう。。。T_T

Fever


World Cup that is.
Even Google is down.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Happy Birthday...

To Ah Beng, who's birthday falls on the 10th of Jul. Ermm I think he's 33 this year?

And then to Weilin, Happy belated birthday!! And you're 25 every year!!
Hahaha....

Friday, July 09, 2010

Step by step

Guess it doesnt hurt to know how far/near you are from the goal...

Step 1: Submission
Update: Called up the agency to confirm they got my package
Step 2: Documents screening
Step 3: Exams
Step 4: Interview
Step 5: Embassy nomination
Step 6: Confirmation


Slept on the bus and overshot my stop this morning =(
I'm so tired...

Done!

What I need to do next is to study for the paper, which im not too worried about. Then it's the interview, which I should really seriously prepare for. N from Bunka, who works at the embassy mentioned that the response this year is overwhelming. What's wrong with these people? Economy is better so they should stay on and earn big bucks right? Dont come fight for poor workers like me =(((

Walked from the embassy down to NIE via Nassim Rd just now, and realised there's actually quite a no. of extravagant properties around there, some of which are quite nice while the others are just L-O-U-D. This is what you do what there's too much money at hand.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

finally tied up most of the loose ends for the application.
Tomorrow's the day I'll rush to get everythg sent out via Speedpost, so at least I'll be 1 day earlier than the deadline (unlike last year hhahaha).

Thinking if I dont get it, should I continue applying for admission anyway?

Took out a photo i took with the old man at work so that I can put it somewhere on my desk. The next time i feel like hurling insults at him, i hope i'll be able to grab the photo fast enough to shut myself up. So sweet.

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Customer Service

Too often nowadays, I have this thought... If I had wanted to serve people, to be seen with an obliging smile and be able to talk to others in a humble you-are-always-right manner, I wouldnt have chosen to do engineering. It would have been sales or customer service, where "Money is King" is the hard cold fact.

But no, I knew there's no way I wanna do something like this. Indeed, that's why I'm in R&D, where everything is efficient and we (attempt to) make logical decisions. Somehow, I feel like the internal customers (our GMCs) are treating me, the R&D guy, as if I'm the person who is supposed to serve them no matter what their crazy insane requests are. And when I insist on something, they start throwing tempers, and sometimes insults. Especially the angmohs, just coz im Asian doesnt mean im inferior to you, at least not in an Asian firm.

Someone reminded me again last Friday, that it's not worth it all. I then reminded myself that it's just coz my stubbornness refusing to admit defeat.

That reminds me, Tony from the previous post is a lousy American who called us Chinese shit. This is one of the reasons why I totally didnt want to talk to him even when we met at the wedding.

Log

This is really gonna be a log, of what happened during the wkend that just past.

Jul 2 (Fri)
- Got off work at 7
- Stuck in a heavy jam to reach home at 8+
- Rushed out but couldnt get a cab so went for the train
- Decided it'll end up pretty late so got off the train halfway to get a cab from Clementi
- Ultimate failure. Station was flooded with people waiting for non existent cabs. Cabby hotline was too hot, nobody picked it up
- Headed back to train station to get to Queenstown
- Snatched a cab from a (self proclaimed) sick lady
- Race car ride to airport, cabby was a cool guy!
- Jam at Fort Road
- Jam somewhere at Marina
- Reached airport at 10.30pm, with heels in my hand. Departure time was 10.40pm
- Got turned down by JAL, but offered seat on next flight with charges waived

Jul 3 (Sat)
- Hung around Changi T1-T3 till Gong & TC came for supper
- Couple left after supper and I stayed on at Starbucks T2
- Geek stayed over in office to finish those craps he had to work on
- Sky Train started again. Went over T2 for breakfast, T3 for some DFS shopping
- Total Termical Visit count: T1 x 2, T2 x 5, T3 x 6
- Big ang moh beside me on the flight, who threatened to break the handrail with his flesh pouring out of the seat. Super uncomfortable flight
- Watched 映画『ダーリンは外国人』 and cried a few buckets
- Mama in the show said that not just between people with different nationalities, but with all humans, there are bound to be differences that we must learn to live with
- Agree totally and cried 1 more bucket
- Reach Narita and called up the Geek. No answer
- Headed to 日暮里 and found missed call from Geek
- Agreed to meet at 池袋
- Reached and called up the Geek, who was still picking up his laundry (?!?!)
- Shopped alone
- Met Geek and went shopping for his tie and hanky for the next day
- Dinner @ great sushi place!
- Got back to his apartment and he went to rehearse for the emcee-ing

Jul 4 (Sun)
- Got up slightly late and started prep
- Decided we wont go for his pal's car
- Spent more time preparing/dozing off
- Horrid makeup disaster and hurried to salvage everything
- Left the apartment
- Got to the wedding venue after 100 turns
- Met another 100 people whom thought i wasnt gonna turn up... Happiness!
- Drank and ate and laughed.... Wheee!!
- Bride gave a super touching speech, I was holding back my tears to avoid looking like an idiot. It didnt help that she addressed my presence *hearts*
- Ended wedding party, rested at hotel
- Headed for cruise but raining heavily
- Had a few good chats with the peeps
- Nagged at my fave Matty guy to hurry get a proper girl and then married
- Finally had no choice but speak to that Tony *ahem troublemaker* guy who kept on asking the Geek to be careful of me
- Had a guy who kept on supplying me with all kinds of cocktail i asked for.. Double Happiness!!
- Later found out that he's working in some box making/designing company
- By the end of the cruise, i was sobbing in the bride's arm about her leaving for Canada
- Cocktail guy came to say I'm his kinda girl, and exchanged emails *Tony-Pig: 1-0*
- Took a ride from Geek's pal, but dropped off with Matty to get drinks
- Went to the convenience store washroom, and left cocktail guy's contact with Matty
- Matty lost the contact
- Got back to apartment, slept, concussed

Jul 5 (Mon)
- Geek woke up early in the morn to get to work, while I bummed around abit alot while more
- Woke up in ultimate hunger and cooked 2 expired eggs in desperation
- Drowned myself in lotsa veggie juice to wash away the hunger
- Showered, packed, and tidied up the place abit.
- Didnt help coz a dump is still a dump afterall
- Headed to 大宮 for lunch with the Geek
- Realised my wallet was with him. Msged him to remember to bring it from his back
- Geek didnt have my wallet. The suit in his room had it.
- Was early, and waited for him
- 30mins passed, not here. No response
- Got call that he's still stuck in meeting. Darn u (and ouryour bosses!)
- 2 hours passed.
- Decided I was not going to wait to miss another flight in 2 days
- Called up Matty to get pal's no. Asked to borrow some money for train tic (no time for bus anymore)
- Paid for lunch using SG credit card
- Walked out of restaurant, and got call from Geek that he sneaked out of the meeting. Gonna be here in another 5mins. Wished I could swallow u up.
- Met him and he wanted to go for food/coffee. *melt* poor guy hadnt had lunch, at 2.30pm!!!
- Who dares to torture my Geek?!?!??!?! *RRRRAAAAAWWWWWRRRRRRR*
- Got some cash from him
- Time up and headed to take train
- Stupid train I was supposed to take got delayed for 15mins
- Changed plan to reach airport later. Held on the the Softbank phone so that I can check schedules if needed
- Got to airport safely
- Checked in. Guy at the counter was C-U-T-E. *Tony-Pig: 2-0*
- Bought some stuffs, and takoyaki, for my special inflight menu
- Crossed custom and got call from Geek. *melted into another pile of filthy water*
- Got onto flight, and found smelly uncle sitting at my seat
- Excuse me, but if you're looking for a free 2 seater, get your ass outta here
- Took off, and started looking out of window for Mt Fuji. No luck but beautiful sky
- Tucked in to special takoyaki inflight meal
- 2nd dinner. *burp* and 1 half bottle of wine plus 1 glass of umeshu
- Finished watched Tokyo Tower. Cried yet another bucket.
- Tried to sleep. Got some sleep.

Jul 6 (Tue)
- Pleasant taxi ride
- Got home, showered and slept
- Woke up and headed to office with ultra sulky face
- Met Ah Beng at the lift, LIFTED up my mood *Tony-Pig: 3-0*
- Spent day in half conscious mode
- Finally knocked off, feeling super frustrated with work and people
- MD caught me waiting for elevator at wrong door, which caused him to nearly laugh his head off. Basket!
- Dozed off in bus and overshot bus stop. U-turn
- Got home, had dinner. FB-ed. Sent bride congratulatory mail
- Blogged
- Unread email count increased and checked mail (thinking it's fr bride)
- Turned out Cocktail guy emailed, with a beautiful pic of me & bride (ok, both very chio can? =P)
- Now i remember his name, finally *Tony-Pig: 4-0*

P.I.G. KO

*Photos to follow
** Think im growing prone to sobbing at every other chance for every flight i go on T_T