Randomly Ally

The day my tears fell for Ally, again.
It always happens, between us.
Just that this episode and this song all happened at the perfect wrong time.

And I should remember to get a red checkered shirt, blue suit.
And a new job.

I had 4 nomikais this week, and surprisingly, managed to manage work.
Cycled from the apartment to Ginza, shopped around, then went around the Imperial Palace.
Back to Yurakucho for some shopping, including a farewell (cum all the best) gift for someone... Need to get a nice farewell card I could agree with.

Drinking with A the last week didnt leave me feeling better, but confused all over again...

Weaknesses

今天，她在我面前哭了。

我真的吓了一跳。不只是平时看起来非常坚强的她，哭了。而且，我一直觉得把我当成竞争者的她，尽然在我面前放下防备，哭了。

那天，我先问了你有空吗，你说没问题。我就接着不断得说着你送的封电邮，我没法同意, 需要讨论。

我们谈了两小时，你叫我等，说你快死了。平时那么开朗的你，说出这种话，让我非常的担心。过不久你又开始聊，我问刚刚怎么了，你就说死而复活，但很快又会再死多一次。隔天，听说了你们那里出了些事。真惨。

天啊，看起来越乐观的人，一不开心，真会让人感到不安。

今天聊到大阪弁，我用了句连你都没听过的词，真失败。我那天对你提了乘还是母亲节，打个电话回家给你妈，你向我会报那天聊了过后就马上打了。真是个听话的好孩子！还说了你哥的宝宝，终于取了个（很短）的名字。

天啊。我真不喜欢倒数你开始不在的日子。

Ohhhh

怎么，有点想吐的感觉。

（no, 不是你们想的那样）

OMG........

头痛

Some people don't understand that by being too kind to one person, they might be being unkind to another (or others).

Moving on, I think... I shall launch a "Challenge yourself" campaign... Not so much of having an aim but just to see how far you can go. 

You can do it!

回想

那天你问起，喜欢小孩吗？
我说，只要不是自己的就觉得可爱，会喜欢。
但自己的话，就要考虑很久，因为不喜欢被人家粘着。
我问回你呢，你的答案很暧昧，但还是逼出了个“好き!"。

你说了你相信“可愛い子には旅させよう”，我怎么都觉得你在瞎说。
因为怎么样你就是那种注定被可爱的生物欺负的人。

说到你的家人，你蛮关心他们的。
我也想看看你会在朋友的婚礼上跳的那只舞。
觉得你作为朋友，很尽心的。

这几天，真有点对不起。
可能我的语气有点故意冷淡点。
或者我们的立场让我觉得我们应该保持点距离。
除了工作就不敢把话题撤得太远。

今天的会议，当我们的视线在空中交叉时，我怎么觉得心少跳了一两下下。

我，有点不行了。

Because the sun will set

Everything always starts with nothing.

At first it was the correspondences and working together that no one would think anything of.

Followed by jokes people make that we don't even bat an eyelid about.

It wasn't long before I found myself relying on you like a trusty buddy, and if someone else delivered the work, I won't be satisfied, no matter what.

Ended up, we were directly dealing with things that I suppose both of us were supposed to let go - gotta give myself credits for trying to deal with the rest!

One fine day, you broke the news - in officially. it wasn't pleasant but I promised to make it a happy occasion, because we have to be supportive of each other.

And I started counting down......

Somehow, the counting down was accompanied by an accidental lunch out together, and another one which probably stretched till tea...

It was probably coincidental but chat messages weren't just about work and topics started to range from your next job, us working during holidays, helping to check out the stuffs for the upcoming work, Japanese (language), our friends, families and life. It was then I got to understand you more, besides the usual friendliness self, there's another side that don't usually present itself.

It was funny when you tried to pass lame messages through your team mates, I totally had to dismiss it coz I couldnt remember the name of the Japanese anime I used to go after, no way to continue with the topic. That time when you tried to correct the response to my email addressed to the entire team for the N-th time, I actually had a good time laughing at the cosmetic amendments you made... And I still remember the time when someone went behind my back and asked for a longer deadline for my team coz he saw my manager pressing me (which was a mistake), but your team member let the cat out of the bag later. Of course, I will remember how you never fail my insane requests and trying to make our lives easier, no matter what time of the day it is!

I'm glad we met, coz it was really good to talk outside of the work environment (though it kinda ended up being work-related halfway). Some of the topics really made my heart skip a bit or two, i was taken by surprise though I'm glad to make a truthful response.

P/S: I'm sorry for chickening out and running away halfway, leaving you wondering if I fell into the ocean. I'm glad you came for me though the crazy traffic lights nearly drove me mad.

Thanks for all of it =) and for the sincerity.

You talk about the next pancakes but I don't think that's gonna happen...