Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Monday, September 15, 2014
I own it
We are born with nothing, and leave the world with nothing.
But as far as I am now, there are some things I own the rights to.
Like penning down my thoughts and not having to be told to feel bad about it (unless I really think so).
I can almost feel the audit peak starting, as if it's just crashing down slowly and I imagine hearing a gabarabaraaaaa sound as it does. My last few months went past with me on a couple of non-audit consulting stuffs, which practically will leave me working from the start of the last peak (Oct 2013?) to the end of the next (say May 2015, optimistically)? Gonna be best friends with the station 駅員 and oyajis waiting for last trains... And of cos, burn my pocket with cab rides. There's going to be one less support this year end, and that really make me miss the good old days... Arrrggghhhh...
Been making efforts to go out with the geek... Coz it hurts to see him looking so hopeful even I've prob said the meanest things to him ever... Well and trying to meet up for dinner more often, though my plans get sabotaged most of the time.
Drinking sessions have become a weekly affair, and I find myself spending more time with umeko... Perhaps the impending separation brought us closer... Perhaps the end of her diet plans (for now) was a relief for both of us... Felt like I was walking on stiff chest, restraining myself from asking her out for dinner. After she's gone, I can imagine my life turning duller.... Maybe I should check out with the Yamaha people what's taking them so long to get me playmates...
Last Fri was a whirlwind session. Dinner with the 2 guys, and then one of them just said he had to leave suddenly. Then we finally got to meet up with the homecoming boy, nice to have been able to catch up with him... And I finally got to meet the superstar doggy... The ride home was kinda "unsmooth" and I had prob convincing myself to get into the house door... I'm that weird..
Work tmr, even though it's a holiday... But at least it's going to be a quiet day (or so I hope)... I actually don't like to be put in charge/full responsibility of engagements.... And I'm doing it coz ppl look like they will die if they can't find someone to do it. Will be in the field with 2 boys... One of which is too initiative and I've learnt to better control him before he acts too smart and lead us off track. The other one likes to ask (pretty intelligent) questions, and I like engaging him in conversations which make us think abt better approaches... I wish I have more time to do so, instead of letting the other one lead him in the wrong direction, and me going back to face a messy scene.
Someone asked me to wait. I'm not sure what that means coz I wasn't particularly expecting sth in return. So that felt me feeling dazed for the past 2 days and I can only hope work will make me forget it... Similar things happened at PPR when they assumed they knew what I wanted, which was all wrong. I left the room feeling dark clouds in my head.
This looks like it's going to be yet another crazy week...
And please don't push youself too hard, crazy worm, which I know you will....
Here's a pic I love of Germany from the trip! I promise to be back! ;)
But as far as I am now, there are some things I own the rights to.
Like penning down my thoughts and not having to be told to feel bad about it (unless I really think so).
I can almost feel the audit peak starting, as if it's just crashing down slowly and I imagine hearing a gabarabaraaaaa sound as it does. My last few months went past with me on a couple of non-audit consulting stuffs, which practically will leave me working from the start of the last peak (Oct 2013?) to the end of the next (say May 2015, optimistically)? Gonna be best friends with the station 駅員 and oyajis waiting for last trains... And of cos, burn my pocket with cab rides. There's going to be one less support this year end, and that really make me miss the good old days... Arrrggghhhh...
Been making efforts to go out with the geek... Coz it hurts to see him looking so hopeful even I've prob said the meanest things to him ever... Well and trying to meet up for dinner more often, though my plans get sabotaged most of the time.
Drinking sessions have become a weekly affair, and I find myself spending more time with umeko... Perhaps the impending separation brought us closer... Perhaps the end of her diet plans (for now) was a relief for both of us... Felt like I was walking on stiff chest, restraining myself from asking her out for dinner. After she's gone, I can imagine my life turning duller.... Maybe I should check out with the Yamaha people what's taking them so long to get me playmates...
Last Fri was a whirlwind session. Dinner with the 2 guys, and then one of them just said he had to leave suddenly. Then we finally got to meet up with the homecoming boy, nice to have been able to catch up with him... And I finally got to meet the superstar doggy... The ride home was kinda "unsmooth" and I had prob convincing myself to get into the house door... I'm that weird..
Work tmr, even though it's a holiday... But at least it's going to be a quiet day (or so I hope)... I actually don't like to be put in charge/full responsibility of engagements.... And I'm doing it coz ppl look like they will die if they can't find someone to do it. Will be in the field with 2 boys... One of which is too initiative and I've learnt to better control him before he acts too smart and lead us off track. The other one likes to ask (pretty intelligent) questions, and I like engaging him in conversations which make us think abt better approaches... I wish I have more time to do so, instead of letting the other one lead him in the wrong direction, and me going back to face a messy scene.
Someone asked me to wait. I'm not sure what that means coz I wasn't particularly expecting sth in return. So that felt me feeling dazed for the past 2 days and I can only hope work will make me forget it... Similar things happened at PPR when they assumed they knew what I wanted, which was all wrong. I left the room feeling dark clouds in my head.
This looks like it's going to be yet another crazy week...
And please don't push youself too hard, crazy worm, which I know you will....
Here's a pic I love of Germany from the trip! I promise to be back! ;)
And Turkey? You have my words..
Monday, September 01, 2014
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