Confusion

The last time someone said "nevermind me" that made me think abt it for days, it happened in a real life nightmare. Of late, the same phrase popped up in one of my dream, which is a series of dreams that seem to continue from where it left off the previous time. Oh no, am i turning nuts or what?

Work was supposed to have chilled down quite abit by last week, which it did but not for long enough. I was supposed to be free of schedule this week and made some plans to really do up the house and start some of my craft projs which have been lying ard since forever. But thgs in life never turn out the way you plan, so here i am, having hardly less than 2 days of off peak proj before being thrown into the ultimate nightmare, which will last till next yr at the very least... i know i shdnt be complaining since there's people who have worked on the same proj all yr round for a few yrs already... *kowtow*

There's somethg abt leadership, i need to voice it out today. I think we are all good at saying it, but not many actually do what they preach. You dont earn respect just because you are a leader, but from the way you lead. If you are the kind that turn your back against your own people in the face of ur own boss, then ur not gonna earn any brownie pts, at least not fr me! The best part is how you bitch abt this same superior behind his back, to ur team members, but behave like a puppy in front of him. The others would be wondering what you are capable of doing behind their backs. *ends rattling and takes deep breath*

Alrite so i got myself a sexy bike the last weekend, and the first ride had been pretty smooth and effortless. Just have to make sure i keep it up! Oh and also inform the mansion guy abt the parking space the bike is tking up :)

Christmas

Hoping listening to this will make summer abit more bearable =(

Reflections

There are times when I start being critical of others and give a loud and hard *tsk* at these people behaving/talking in ways that put them down.

There are also times when I feel like I'm guilty of it myself.




Had 2 perf reviews for the projects I've been involved so far, and I'm very happy to have received some constructive comments on why they think I've done well and where I can improve in. I must have been really lucky (accumulated lotsa karma by giving up seats to old people) to get a mentor who observes the way I work, my progress and share his ideas and experiences with me. On the other hand, I don't get it when some evaluators are just full of good/average things to say and dont come into the meeting with ideas for improvement. Might as well just key them into the system and save others the time =P


One year away from home, maybe it's time to think about the past year and how we can move forward! =)

Weak

Thought we said that i will stay determined and not let my mind wander. But all that you call will and determination fell apart the moment our lines of sight met by accident (was trying to look away all night). Ended up having another walk back to the station together. Yes, kill me please.
On another note, it finally seem like thgs at work are looking much better and taking off (well, kinda, abit..) for me. It's not hit and miss and miss and miss all the time but more hits recently.

Got to be on board of that high publicity proj as one of the main members, while enjoying the minor jobs that bring me to different places and to meet many interesting people and things. It gets very tiring whenever i pause to think about it, but this is not something i will give up easily, and im glad that i had taken that step out of my comfort zone a year ago. If i hadnt moved on, i will have no idea whats in line for me.

There's also a few surprises along the way where people whisper to my ears things that lift me off the ground a little... ermm ok, abit more than a little =P ok but feet must always stay on the ground, i remind myself. I shouldnt really be bothered at this stage in my life, seriously.
Tonight, i count my blessings, and i shall go to bed with an exhausted body and a smile on my face.